The Hunt For Focus

The elephant in the room keeps looking at me. I know exactly why it is peering my way. The elephant knows I have lost it; I know it too. I didn't want to believe it... At least not yet. How did it take so long to gain it, but could be lost in a matter of a couple weeks? Then a month? A half of a year? Then three-quarters of a year later? Where did I misplace my focus and motivation?

Until this year I was consistent enough. Often making progress on side projects. Slicing off thin implementations that could be solved in an evening or two. Reading and writing in between the implementation stints. Then, something in me changed. First, there was an idea for a post that I said to myself, "I will write that tomorrow or next week". Only to have the idea fade into nothing. The idea that I wrote on paper, as my laptop was in a different city than I was. That post is now recycled into new paper for someone else's ideas to live.

Well, it stops here. I have often thought that the post-schedule was too aggressive. It's my schedule. I keep it. No one else keeps it. I can write when I want and when I feel it's right. Right? Today, I have a post. Tomorrow I may too. But it is fine not to have one every day or every week. Teachable moments are around every day. It is for me to figure out what moments I care to capture.

Here is to a new me and a new set of posts.